Thankyou thankyou and thankyou again..lol..gdamn i havent been able to get on here for a couple of days...but i can see that efx2 has a few kinks atm that need to be fixed....i just got a bit worried in case you all thought i had gone again.....well this week has seen 2 funerals..go figure.....kims grandad and damos nans husband have passed...damos nans husbands funeral was yesterday and was a catholic mass then cremation..it strange because the first hymn that was sung was a very beautiful hymn and was the hymn that was sung at mother dears funeral...i am at peace with my feelings for pat now, i have no anger or dissapointment i just miss her like a child misses its mother and i have spoken to all my siblings who are more than happy to welcome me into the family with open arms...so at last i feel i belong of course this is tinged with sadness as to what could have been but i firmly believe i was sent down this path in life for a reason.......i wish i could go back to bein the legs u all no and love..but i guess nothing stays the same......my home life is wonderful...my eldest PAUL is at college and is going to uni to study to be a lawyer!!! talk about proud oh my god i am so proud...and hey WINDY he says he is goin to emigrate one day to america where he is goin to buy me a house..lol..LEE is now a good kid once more no running away smoking ect..just a normal 14 year old..KIM well she is 12 going on 21 beautiful and funny and quite frankly a biatch!!!..lol....DAMO is still my loving laid back fella and i love him dearly...as for LEGS ..lol..she still writes with crap puctuation and lots of dots..lol....I havent spoken to my folks for a while but im going to take a deep breath and go visit them tommorrow, they will probably still critisise me but hell i have learnt one thing life is to damn short for regrets so im going to just grin and bear it.....they r in their 80,s now and i cant survive losing them and not sorting things out first....well thats it for now...thankyou again my dear friends for standing by me and understanding....i must have done something right for you to still be there for me...will be posting pics and stuff over the next couple of days so you can see how we all look....lots of love hugs and kisses ....LEGS...xxxxx
I cant tell you how shit i feel right now...in all my life the people who have always been there for me are my blog family..i have just not been me for a long time now...chris died and it took it out of me...then bernie...then worst of all mother dear...every time i thought i would blog again...more blooody shit happened......mother dear hit me so hard....dont think i even now realise that she has gone and i will never be able to talk to her and ask her why she just gave me away...see this is why i dont blog...all i do is whinge....the day i was told she died i walked around the house screaming and screaming..i dont think anyone really understands the pain i feel..they do try....but i guess they think why did i leave it till it was too late to talk to her...but hell its too late now!....i just want to belong again...i dont want to live in this godamn limbo anymore...i need u all to forgive me for being such a selfish bitch..i miss u all so much...I AM SO SORRY PLEASE FORGIVE ME
Hi all, me and the family are going on holiday tommorrow for a week, for a much needed break, when i come back i will get my ass back into blogging:).....hope you are all well and see you soon...much love as always, Legsxxxxxx
Just a quick note to let you know that pat's funeral was yesterday, i went and finally found the closure i have been so desperatley seeking, at the moment i could write a book about the events of the day, but i have to let myself settle and my heart to heal, its been a horrible couple of years starting of course with christina's death, then bernie and now pat, my adorable mitzy never came home and my darling little dude (bearded dragon lizard) died also.
I dont intend to dwell on things as life is just far too short, ah yes my boy has now left school just has his exams to do now, so fingers crossed for him,
As always your comments mean the world to me and i love you all, i will post more in a few days and tell you how the day went.
Love hugz and kisses to you all..love from legs:)..xxx
do u remember every birthday i had i was a bit bitter because i was adopted and i used to wonder if she remembered it was my bday,,i wanted to tell her how i felt,,,she had 2 kids b4 me and 2 kids after me and i wrote a poem called momma dear...i dont know how to find the poem...those of u who know me well will remember it....well its her who has died,,,so now i have no closure........and it hurts like hell....
Posted 2008-Apr-3 @ 04:04
Oh my goodness i had forgotten how much fun it was to play with my design...lol..i have been doing this all day::)
damn its a cold miserable day here today, all the spring flowers are blooming so all the gardens look pretty but the sky is overcast.
Ah well i better go give the house a quick clean now..lol...see ya later..love hugz and kisses legs
Posted 2008-Apr-1 @ 05:41
The building burns the baby cries
the sirens scream wlecome lullabys
trapped inside the house no way out
listen to the parents cry and shout
out comes the ladder and up he goes
just what he faces noone knows
the windows explode with the intense heat
nearly knocking him clean off his feet
in he goes room thick with smoke
listening to the sound of the baby choke
on he goes without any fear
he has to get the baby out of here
crawling in the darkness across the floor
finally he manages to reach the door
into the bedroom and to the cot
the infant is alive and the room is hot
quick as he can holding baby tight
he makes his way back out into the night
the baby is safe he is very glad
and back into the arms of its mom and dad
the unsung hero then goes on his way
to save another life on another day
always putting his own life in the line
so he can save the lives of yours and mine
written by legs©
Posted 2008-Apr-1 @ 03:49
I just sat here for an hour writing a poem, previewed it then instead of adding it i shut down my blog......lol..lost the lot...ahhhh bugger
Posted 2008-Mar-31 @ 10:36
THIS IS THE BEST DECISION I HAVE MADE IN OVER A YEAR,THERE ISNT A DAY GOES BY I DONT THINK OF YOU ALL.....EVERYONE OF YOU,I NEEDED TIME OUT, AND MAYBE I TOOK JUST AS MUCH AS I NEEDED, BECAUSE NOW I REALLY FEEL LIKE I AM SOOO READY TO BE HERE...THANKYOU FOR WAITING FOR ME..ITS SO GOOD TO BE HOME...:))))
Posted 2008-Mar-31 @ 03:27
Ok i know i have been gone away far too long but now im back, first thing im gonna be doing is making my blog look a little bit more like home....hope you are all ok, will be making the rounds real soon, love hugz and kisses legs:
Posted 2008-Feb-14 @ 11:57
Paul so tall and handsome
you are turning into a young man
and i my hopes and dreams for you
are to get all in life you can
Lee you are so funny and sweet
although sometimes you make me mad
u can be so damn stubborn
but to shout at you makes me sad
Kim my little prima donna
i think it will be the stage for you
sometimes my sides ache with laughter
at the funny things you do
Damo you make me happy
and the children too
and every day i thank god
that in my life i have you
Mum and dad we had our problems
but i know that you still love me
and im so very sorry
for not being what you wanted me to be
Sis we are so different
you have to stand out from the crowd
sometimes you frustrate me
but you make me very proud
Christina i send thoughts in my dreams
for i still see you there
know that you remain in my heart
and that i will always care
My friends here in cyberspace
those here and those who have gone
i send warm and loving wishes
and thanks for helping me carry on
and for anyone who is lonely
i send some love your way
for i have plenty in my heart
on this special loving day
HAPPY VALENTINES DAY LOVE HUGZ AND LOVE FROM LEGS XXXX
Damn first poem i havent written in a long time
Posted 2007-Dec-31 @ 12:26
Well its 12.30am on new years eve and my darling son is 16 today...it feels like yesterday i held his little body for the first time...now he is 6 foot 2.....I LOVE U SON HAPPY BBIRTHDAY.........xmas...well xmas day was as hard as we thought it would be we spent it at damo's moms, she was really brave, it must have been hard for her the first xmas without bernie, i coudnt even contemplate a xmas or a day without my damo...its been a lousy year, really its been a lousy couple of years one way or another, i still miss christina desperatley, i feel like time has stood still since she died....by boxing day, i was really ill.....sickness bug that just wont go away, i have spent most of xmas feeling like by stomach was a blender..lol..and oh god i so should have lost lots of weight..the bug slowly ate its way through us all...noone has eaten or drunk very much this xmas..lol...
AND IN NO PARTICULAR ORDER..THE PEOPLE WHO ENRICHEN MY LIFE
WINDY, i have simple plan playing through my head phones....though it makes me cry it reminds me of you..i love u my darling my life is richer for knowing you.....SHARONB you mean more to me than u could ever realise...i am so proud to call you my sis....EMMA..i miss u so much..love u little one....KINNGURL..u r amazing..godamn..i am honoured to know u and ur beautiful family....ROSE my beutiful ROSEone day i hope u make it here to the uk so i can hug u for real.....WIL i have the utmost respect for you,i am very proud to call u my friend, u teach me so much and show me a world i can only ever imagine, CHANDRA the wonderfully talented inspiring chandra ur music is beautiful..i love you..CHICA-X u r an amazing person and mom and i would be proud to call u my daughter......WOLFIE, lol my gentleman, my prince, my night in shining armour...A.J. my dear dear friend...love ya....LOGIS, ah my dear sweet logis, always a pleasure to speak to you, u are the kind of man i hope my daughter will one day meet, ...MISS BOBISA..you always make me smile,your beautuful face brightens my day,..DEVILYN, lol god girl i love you, u r so out there u r one in a million...PATTY...i wish i could be like you, u r someone i respect and admire greatly.....RUBICON, u know i love you ruby baby, i know u have been through so much and im sorry i have not been there more for u...DANI,where the fuck are u girl..lol...very proud of you..love u...MISS MINDA,the talented and very sexy minda:))...BBD AND LITTLE PASHA..lots and lots of hugs from auntie legs....DEADONTHESOFA.....u made difference when i needed it most thankyou..be strong honey..love ya...WOMAN OF FEATHERS, thankyou for being there when i so desperatley needed you....LAURIE(LAURIE'S ASSYLUM), i always loved you, im sorry for not showing it more,BITZKY, dont ever give up and dont ever give in...u r one in a million..love you moonin master...JIORGEE, i will speak to u soon honey , u get stronger every day..love ya..AND FOR ANYONE I MAY HAVE NOT MENTIONED, I APOLOGISE, U ALL MEAN THE GODAMN WORLD TO ME..LOVE AND HUGS AS ALWAYS LEGS
Posted 2007-Dec-24 @ 09:48
Merry xmas i love you all......yeti i cant get into your blog...but be sure i miss u and wish you and bernie a very merry xmas...love and hugz and more love and hugz.,..legs
Posted 2007-Dec-14 @ 12:58
Hi all....i am getting into the xmas spirit and have installed one of the wonderful sharonb"s designs..i have personelised it a little bit, lol i dont think i will ever get the hang of things, but i will try:).
The children are all getting excited about xmas and i think im about ready, which is just as well because im full of flu...lol...runny nose sore throat aches and pains, ah well as long as it gone by the special day...going for a wander around blog land now, i must say it is so good to know u r all still here and havent forgotten me:)))....love and hugz to all legs..
Posted 2007-Dec-13 @ 10:30
oh i am such a bad blog friend.....dont know what the hell is wrong with me....i love my blog friends but i, oh shit no excuses r not good enough.....im sooo sorry....legs shakes her head and hopes it sorts her out......ahhh heart ache makes me so lathargic....legs makes a note to herself...try harder tommorow...love n hugs as always,,legs
Posted 2007-Nov-22 @ 11:08
I thank god every day of my life for u all.....the only really significant and constant people in my life.....i may not be here but believe me i am here...happy thanksgiving
Posted 2007-Nov-9 @ 08:14
Attention Blog User:
There has been a recent outbreak of spam that is sneaking past our spam filters and using the Post Trackback feature. This feature, if enabled on your posts, will allow spam to get in and post comments - those of which no one wants.
Since Keith is currently offline and not available, us Community Leaders have taken it upon us to find a temporary solution until Keith can do something.
Here's The Fix:
You need to go here:
http://www.efx2blogs.com/manager/tra...ttings.php
and make sure "Trackback Default for New Entries" is set to 'Trackbacks Disabled' in the drop-down menu and also, "Autodetect Trackbacks?" is set to 'Autodetect Disabled' in the drop-down menu.
This will disable trackback on all new posts you make.
*** If you are apart of multiple blogs, you will need to select specific blog in which the problem is first in the blog control panel.... and then click that link for the settings to appear. ***
For previous posts that have been attacked you must Edit that post and just below the Post Edit Box you should see a link "Advanced Post Options" - click that and you should see an option for "Allow Trackbacks?" and make sure it is set to 'No.'
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